Sunday, August 30, 2009.
off to Harbin for 3 wks!
will miss a lot of stuff.
bye guys! (:
signing off
sam
Friday, August 28, 2009.
haha, piano exam's finally over!
now i can look forward to HARBIN! :D
after exam went to meet a few classmates for lunch at swensens. haha.
met Khoo after that, and we went to watch "Where Got Ghost?" at plaza sing. Not scary, just shocking at certain parts cos some things just pop up very randomly and unexpectedly. haha.
Perry came along after that, then we went to Yamaha to play the pianos.
went to Secret Recipe after that, and had dinner with them and Luke, Ong and Martin.
played pool after that till quite late. haha.
enjoyed my day. thanks guys! (:
signing off
sam
tag replies:
Oribelle - LOL... went in on first shot? xD
Wednesday, August 26, 2009.
hmm.
whole day pretty much spent on the piano again.
exam on friday. bahhhhhhh. D:
nvm. HARBIN AFTER THAT! \o/
and i'll be overseas alot this holiday.
got another trip to Penang. hahaha.
oh well!
signing off
sam
Tuesday, August 25, 2009.
played atonal music the whole afternoon. gahhhh.
bass lesson in the evening saved my ears. lol...
signing off
sam
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throw the CD like a frisbee!
ajisen, i aint going there again!
C+ D:
ineedmoreclothesforharbin!
once a llama twice a llama
llama on a llama
llama llama duck.
piaNOOOOOOOOOOOO
and that sums up my day!
signing off
sam
Sunday, August 23, 2009.
get to the root of the problem
and get rid of it.
i've been spamming piano the whole day. i dont wanna hear my test piece anymore ever again!
signing off
sam
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i've been thinking some more.
and i finally realise.
there's much more to go on for.
more reason to smile than not to.
just that i've been focusing on the latter too much.
i shall stop regretting about the past and move along.
after all, we can't undo it eh?
alright. forward, to move on, and see what comes with it.
i'll just need to try and change whatever i can change, and accept what i cannot.
hard... but i'll do my best.
back to my decision to stay happy. yeah. hahaha.
thanks to all those who were there for me,
you all gave me more reason to pick myself up.
Sola scriptura, Sola fide, Sola gratia, Solus Christus, Soli Deo gloria
signing off
sam
Friday, August 21, 2009.
sorry for the emo fit last night. managed to push some stuff out of my head, but there's still a few stuff staying inside. =/
rah. playlist.com licence so many of its tracks. blog officially no music...
and i dont think i'm the only one O.O
oh well. long day tmr. shall turn in soon
signing off
sam
tag replies:
HuiYi - they keep telling me "Your PHP installation appears to be missing the MySQL extension which is required by WordPress" ):
Darien - hope you're alright dude
Thursday, August 20, 2009.
i'm screwing up my own life.
now even some people in the house dont wanna see my face.
hah. thanks a lot eh. SO MUCH BLOODY HELP YOU GAVE.
how about you fire a few more rounds?
signing off
sam
Sunday, August 16, 2009.
been busy the whole day today with Miao and Junqi. study study study.
couldnt go my mom's theology class graduation. I'M SORRY MOMMY ><...
tmr is maths test. and i'm so not prepared! rahhhhhh...
so God, help me...
so you DO know how it feels.
signing off
sam
Saturday, August 15, 2009.
"actions speak louder than works"
that's what's been in my mind the whole day. i really mean the whole day.
certain actions revealed to me certain stuff
the words only confirmed them.
now all we know is falling.
signing off
sam
tag replies:
Nic - hey relinked. thanks for the beeg cyber hug. haha.
Friday, August 14, 2009.
hmm. been a tiring week for me. work is piling up (its all my fault for accumulating it, really), and so many exams are around the corner. i dont know how to divide my time equally to all of them, i dont have enough... gosh.
well anyway, i had my DMIT finals last night. classmates were awesome, i was really touched by all the support. haha. thanks you guys (:
alright. off to do some work. think i'll slp early tonight though. tired to the max...
signing off
sam
Tuesday, August 11, 2009.
Name: Samuel
Date: 8/11/2009
Colorgenics Number: 71205634
Enough is enough - you feel frustrated and rejected. You are fighting back and the going is tough. It would be just wonderful if you could be left in peace.
You are a fighter and always on the defensive. You always need to be sure that your position is safe and established. When you finally make a decision you will pursue it to the bitter end in spite of all opposition.
Being a very proud individual, you tend to hold yourself aloof pretending that you are stoical - indifferent to pain and pleasure. This is not so, for in truth you are an extremely emotional individual, one that may make a hasty decision and perhaps regret it at leisure. It is time now to break the bond of detachment and be the 'you' that you would like to be - give vent to your emotions and enjoy yourself.
All of the stress and strains resulting from disappointment have led to agitation and anxiety. You have been going out of your way to make a good impression, but you have reservations as to the likelihood of succeeding. You feel that you have a right to accomplish all that you set your mind on but you have become helpless and distressed when circumstances have gone against you. The idea of failure is most upsetting and this can even mean utter dejection. You see yourself as a scapegoat and you feel everyone in your sphere of influence has tried to take undue advantage of you. You are trying to convince yourself that your failure to achieve standing and recognition is not of your making but indeed of those around you.
At this time you don't particularly like yourself. Everything that you have tried to do seems to have gone wrong. This makes you feel that there is no point in trying to start again. Apart from being stressed and tense, you are angry with yourself and have unadmitted self-contempt. Your refusal to admit that you and you alone is the basic cause of your problems leads to you adopting a headstrong and defiant attitude. If you take stock of yourself, smile a little and let go, everything will turn out OK. Have you not heard of the cliche 'smile and the world smiles with you - cry and you cry alone!'?
From: http://www.goldinuniverse.com/
Monday, August 10, 2009.
its all my fault again...
why does this keep happening to me
i get someone special, then do something to screw it all up?
i'm always the one at fault... and its always unfixable...
i cant take it anymore, i'm falling apart...
at the rate i'm going, i'm gonna be an introvert someday.
i think that'd be perfect for an fool like me...
why do i keep making mistakes? why do i keep losing people? why?
i cant do anything right anymore. i'm losing control of myself.
i'm losing myself.
and i'm losing you...
no wait. i've lost you already...
oh God. just take it all away. please. take me away if You cant take it away...
.
Unholy Confessions - Avenged Sevenfold
"I'll try!" she said as she walked away,
"try not to lose you."
Two vibrant hearts could change.
Nothing tears the being more than deception,
unmasked fear.
"I'll be here waiting" tested and secure.
Nothing hurts my world,
just affects the ones around me.
When sin's deep in my blood,
you'll be the one to fall.
"I wish I could be the one,
the one who won't care at all.
But being the one on the stand,
I know the way to go, no one's guiding me.
When time soaked with blood turns its back,
I know it's hard to fall.
Confided in me was your heart.
I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me."
Nothing will last in this life
our time is spent constructing,
now you're perfecting a world... meant to sin.
Constrict your hands around me,
squeeze till I cannot breathe,
this air tastes dead inside me,
contribute to our plague.
Break all your promises,
tear down this steadfast wall,
restraints are useless here,
tasting salvation's near.
Nothing hurts my world,
just affects the ones around me
When sin's deep in my blood,
you'll be the one to fall.
"I wish I could be the one,
the one who won't care at all
But being the one on the stand,
I know the way to go, no one's guiding me.
When time soaked with blood turns its back,
I know it's hard to fall.
Confided in me was your heart.
I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me."
you have no idea how much you just broke me.
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Nothing tears the being more than deception,
unmasked fear.
i'm starting to wonder.
truly willing, or said without meaning?
if its the former, its sure not showing...
its getting hard for me. i'm growing tired, and time is just passing me.
now i need it before i loose all grip...
signing off
sam
tag replies:
Annabelle - Hey haha did that like happen to you or smth?
Izzy DMAT - yeah haha thanks.
Oribelle - yeap trying haha thanks.
Friday, August 07, 2009.
can you help me find a way to carry on again
ringtone finally done. i'll faint of exhaustion if i dont get enough slp soon.
some things are refusing to budge.
certain things are damn annoying too. i'm getting very irritated.
i'm more worried than irritated, though...
i want it quickly out of the way...
and really soon...
signing off
sam
tag replies:
Wen Yan - yo. what's your add?
Jing Yi - haha, thanks. will try my best. (:
Wednesday, August 05, 2009.
and that's what i get for trying. but i guess its my fault again...
i should learn to make my stand. be firm.
heck. i'll admit i'm shaky.
but yet at the same time... i guess i'm the one in the wrong. i'm always the one at fault anyway. its getting tiring.
ah screw this. forget it. i dont know when i'll be right about things anyway. have never been. i've been too shaky.
again i find myself apologising. my fault, my fault, and my fault.
really, when will i ever be bloody correct? i feel like cussing at myself now... -.-
better stop before i actually do.
i hope that the promises made will be remembered and were more than just empty shells of words...
signing off
sam
(p.s. you aint the only one. i'm hurt because of something you shot at me. do you even realise that? i'm tired. i really am. i'm trying, i'm really trying my best, but i need some response, because right now, its really wearing me out, and i'm really getting tired...)
Sunday, August 02, 2009.
today was not bad.
Shaun came over at about 10am to record a song for his project. i must admit, i was pretty satisfied. :D i thought we worked pretty fast too. hahaha. all the best for your project bro
after that, a few church ppl came over and we played basketball the whole day. yep. i think my legs are gonna be sore tmr. =x
oh well. hahaha.
something is still plaguing me. i hope to settle it soon, really. its affecting me more than i thought it was...
but then again, i got a promise made to me to hold on to. that's comforting, for me at least.
hope it'll be settled asap...
signing off
sam
tag replies:
Shaun - haha, its okay. thanks for the offer anw. i'll be fine. (:
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self destruction, the name of the game?
ah damn...
i'm getting tired again...
and its not just physically
i'm starting to think about some stuff. see some things in a different view. i dont think i should though.
i dont know. i dont know if its better if i knew... =/ maybe its better if some things were left unknown to me. unclarified.
but then again... maybe knowing would help? rahhh i dont know...! ):
help me...? anyone...?
"try this on, straitjacket feeling, so maybe i won't be alone..." - Straitjacket Feeling, All American Rejects
signing off
sam
