Wednesday, July 30, 2008.
Whew, just got back from DPA interview... The course I was trying to DPA for was Music And Audio Technology in Singapore Poly. Thanks for all who prayed for me...Everything went well, all of the questions they asked I was quite prepared. Thank God I "spotted" the questions and tried to answer them myself at home. Haha...BUT! They saw my Music (as a subject in school) results last year. Didnt do so well, they started questioning me. Bahh... D= hope that wont affect my chances much. But ultimately I leave it to God. Haha...Results coming out on the 12th Aug. Hope I make it, but then again if I do, my poly term'd start in January rather than April. Sian... Lesser time to do the rubbish I was planning to do during the long break! I wanna go work part time at some instrument store, I wanna go teach instruments, etc etc etc... So many plans! =/ but nvm studies come first, so ah well, what the hoots.Okay I'll stop here. ByeSamdoes she even care anymore??? if so, she's not showing it...
Sunday, July 27, 2008.
Is it true? Have I really drifted that far away?
Just came back from a party but I wasn't in the best of moods for the whole day (sorry guys...)
I was reflecting on what someone told me... That at the rate I'm going I'm gonna backslide. And she's not the only one who feels it, there's someone else too...
But is it true? Am I really going down?
I really really don't know, I'm so confused...
All I want is answers... What's making you two feel this way? What am I doing wrong? I know that my walk with God has not exactly been great I'll admit. But... Am I really that close to backsliding as you two say? Have I really gone that far? THAT far?
I dont know who can help me now... I guess no one can, its between me and Him...
Sigh... Help me... I'm crying out...
SamOh God... Am I really that far? Am I really that lost? Am I really going down? Am I really such a big disappointment? Oh God, I need You... Pull me back, pull me back, I dont want to go down... Help me out, I dont wanna drown... Only You can save me now...
Tuesday, July 22, 2008.
Grah, fever these last 2 days. So sian... Out of all times too, just before my prelims! Bah. Yes, prelims start on Thursday. And I missed 2 days worth of lessons! Help ah help!Sigh starting to worry a lot about my studies le... Breaking down at times. =/ I know that I can do better, I know that I can work harder, but then... sigh. I just cant find any motivation. I dont feel the drive. I feel the drag instead. sigh. I wish it'd be all over soon, yet I wish it would never come. Ah well. Life's like that...Nothing much to post about already (yes sec 4 life's that dead) so I shall stop here. Feel free to leave a tag.Samonly YOU can help me... only YOU...HELP!
Monday, July 14, 2008.
hi guys, realised that i havent been posting for a very long time so i decided heck, just post.
wow, o levels are in 14 weeks, that's fast. i hope i can do well, for my future and some other ppl...
extra lessons have been very irritating. i know its for our own good but... sigh. i dont know, i just dont see the reward in all these yet. its still so far away... till then, i'll just continue being tired, annoyed with life, and all...
premils are coming too. mine's coming early cos i didnt have no mid years so yeah. its like in 2 wks time. i'm gonna get killed in this paper... sigh =/
oh yeah, i applied for Direct Poly Admission. 1st choice was Singapore Poly's Music and Audio Technology. 2nd choice was Republic Poly's Sonic Arts. Pray for me yeah, i really really wanna get in to one of these.. then plan to continue to my degree at Lasalle. ah well. Leave it to God...
oher than that, life's been the same monotone thing. go sch, eat, slp, work, blah... ah well. i shall leave here then.
Sam
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear...
